Oh my goodness, I can honestly say that the past few months have been the most hectic/stressful/quickest of my life. I feel like I’ve been running with no chance to stop and catch my breath. Now that I’m on break, I’m soooo tired. I can’t seem to catch up on my sleep. It’s ridiculous. I’ve been basically a stay-at-home mom for the past month or so… It has been fun hanging with EJ, but I also sort of feel like I didn’t get the break I wanted before my winter term class started. I have something due everyday of the week now and when my class is done, I’ll start Spring semester… So, yuck. But, the good thing about all this is that I’m a year out from graduation now! Scary and exciting!
Ok, onto a more shallow subject. I got some new brushes for Christmas that are amazing. I don’t usually think about brushes being the hair tool that changes how your hair acts a whole lot, but these do. I have completely stopped using my flat iron and curling irons, because my hair is so much healthier without them, but I hated not having the versatility of having straight hair or just wavy hair, so I started looking for some solutions. I found these boar bristle brushes from Wen and I use them everyday and they rock. They’re supposed to be good about not causing breakage and they are really cool because your hair doesn’t get tangled in them and they’re round brushes. And that’s all for my gushing about hair stuff, but I love them so much I had to share.
I am feeling really blah lately. Restless, I guess. I want to do something, but I don’t know what. I think it’s just because it’s winter and I’ve been home for a long time now, but geez, sometimes it feels like I’m going to go insane. And when I get like this, it makes me think about where I am in life and then I start thinking about boys… And even though I feel like I’m going to end up with someone eventually, it just seems so far away. And it feels like there isn’t really someone out there who could be all the things that I want and need in a guy who will accept all the things that are wrong with me or be interested enough in me to stick around. I guess everyone feels like this sometimes… And to further complicate that hopeless feeling, I don’t even want to date. I don’t want to have to get that nervous about whether someone is going to like me or worry about scaring someone off. I don’t want to have to go through that horrible getting to know someone process where I second guess everything I say/he says/he does/I do… I just wish I could fast forward to the part where we’ve been dating for a couple of months and we’re comfortable with each other and I don’t have to pretend that when he texts me and it wakes me up that I’m not utterly pissed off. But then I know I always love the first part of relationships… It’s just that the thought of having to start from the beginning again with somebody new is overwhelming. (But heaven knows, I’d never want to date the ones I’ve already dated again
Wow, sorry that took a really melancholy turn… Um, so. Food. I was eating ‘flexitarian’ (no meat on 2-3 days a week) for the last few weeks of December. Then Christmas happened and I’ve not started back on that. I want to get back into that routine again. I think it’s a healthier way to eat, plus when I eat vegetarian meals, I have to eat more diverse foods. Right now, I’m really loving quinoa. Have you ever tried it? Mom, EJ and Erin were all forced to try it by me… and they loved it. Well, I didn’t have to force EJ. He’s so good about trying new foods. All I have to do is sit down to eat something and say, ‘Want a bite?’ He always tries whatever I’m eating and almost always likes it. I hope my kids are like that. Feeding them will be sooo easy.
And I guess the last little thing I’m gonna say is that mom ordered an iPad on ebay and she’s giving me her Kindle Fire. I’m so excited! My computer has gotten really sucky as far as video quality on Netflix, so I’ll have something to watch movies on again. And I’m excited to have a tablet to use for recipes in the kitchen. I don’t know how I cooked before I had a latop or ipod… I guess I just used cookbooks and didn’t do as much weird stuff as I do now. Cooking GF pre-laptop would’ve been impossible. Yikes.
Anyway, I think this is long enough… Not my best blog work, but oh well. It’s a blog! The first of the new year and the first in several months.